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Something I came up with after The Great Escapist, when Sam asks Metatron how comes he never heard of them, they are the freaking Winchesters….and after watching too much S6 gag reels.
I am painfully aware that I’m maybe the only one in this fandom who’s heart didn’t bleed out over the brother moments in Trial and Error. I’m tremendously jealous of those who did enjoy it. Seriously.
I wasn’t a great fan of the brother rift we’ve seen the first ten episodes, nor did I like it that Sam never looked for Dean. I was craving for some brother moments like someone dying with thirst in a desert. I was ready to oversee each and every plot hole, so why wasn’t Trial and error clicking with me when all the signs pointed to success? I thought a lot about it and came to following conclusion:
Dean’s speech to Sam was build out of worry. I believe that is what the writers where going with. Yet I had an uneasy felling hearing it. Dean sounded almost pissed. His speech was presented in an aggressive rapid fire way (at least that what it seemed to me). It sounded like Dean was talking to Dean, like he was angry with himself that he was unable to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Maybe he was angry with what kind of life he has been dealt with. For whatever reason, he sounded pissed to me.
I am aware that Dean’s worry often presents itself as anger (or punching someone). So maybe I should just take it as Dean being Dean. But then Dean started with his self-worth issues and I thought “we’re again back to square one”. If purgatory did one good thing it was getting rid of depressed Dean and giving us badass Dean back. So where does that suddenly come from now? I hear the fans shouting “Dean always had self-worth issues”. Sure he did, and maybe rightfully so when he was 26 and recently deserted by his own father. Maybe even back when Sam choose Ruby over him. That was a long time ago though. Dean killed YED, killed Zacharia, played the key role in putting Lucifer back in the cage, killed Dick Roman and that only had been some major highlights in Dean’s accomplishments. So if all that is not giving Dean some sense of self-worth, nothing ever will and no one can blame John or Sam for it anymore.
So Dean’s “I do the trials because I’m not worth anything” was more about Dean than it seemed to be about keeping Sam safe.
I have to give Sam credit for trying and not letting Dean get away with his suicide mission. The speech he gave to Kevin was caring, on the spot, just perfect. So why not the one he gave to Dean?
Sam said he wants to guide his brother into the light. How can he do that when he himself failed miserably at reaching said light two times now? Or can anyone truly say that he looked overly happy and in love when he was with Amelia? Sam wants to be Dean’s stone number one, yet his default setting is to run (he said it multiple times in S8) when trouble occurs. Maybe if the whole not looking for Dean at the beginning of this season hadn’t happened, I would have a little more faith in Sam.
I wasn’t too happy that Sam’s pep talk of how good a hunter Dean is was at his own expense: “You are the best hunter…better than me, better than dad”. Again with the self-worth issue? In the end Sam begs Dean to trust in him (and man, didn’t the Amy fiasco pop into my mind in that moment) and it’s like a blind man tries to guide Dean over a heavy trafficked street.
I’m sure people think I’m over analyzing things and that I should just enjoy what the writers present me with, but it is nothing I have any control over. So I guess I wrote this more for my benefit to get some closure and move one to where I can enjoy a dog on the bed for Sam and the lady for Dean.
(Sorry English is not my native language, so the text is bound to be full of mistakes)
I found similar ones of Sam and of Sam&Dean but none of Dean. I found the other ones so hilarious funny that I had to make one for Dean too…